So this happened today …
And in 4 weeks the first draft of my thesis is due. These two events together are not particularly conducive to focusing. I try to tell myself it’s writing, that I do it all the time. Like, all the time. But it’s different when I know someone is waiting to read it. It’s different when I know they are waiting to point out what needs to be changed. Even though I know it’s what I want, that this impending judgment will make me, and the writing, better, it’s still not a particularly pleasing prospect. Calling a manuscript a thesis messes with my head. But hey, maybe JJ Abrams is nervous too. He knows that we fans are waiting. He knows that there will be judgment (there already has been). But Star Wars VII is still coming. And I’m still sooooo excited to see it. Maybe the excitement outweighs the judgment. Maybe that’s how JJ can sleep at night. Maybe someone is excited to read my stuff too. So I shouldn’t let my thesis keep me up at night (though I don’t know that continued Star Wars revelations and the adrenaline they raise will ever help my insomnia).